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Giving up

sometimes in life, you have to give up some things. you cant have it all. because you cant commit as much as you would love to. or its simply because, you cant have it...

i gave up my job at ibnu abbas. last week was my last. it was difficult, to leave the children. however the amanah is becoming a burden. its too much on my shoulders. i had to make a choice. and this i made. i will doa for the children. i pray they will get a teacher better than me. Allah, please look after them all..

i gave up loving somebody i love. i did it once, when i was 17. it happened again and strangely this time, im actually smiling abt it :) subhanaAllah.. Alhamdulillah.. it is one of the easiest thing to give up. last time when i did so, i suffered the silent rebel. i remembered my heart ached for days and days. Alhamdulillah, with better knowledge this time.. and haha growing up or older :p and by the grace of Allahu Rabbir Rahman... i, His small, immortal creation understand things better now..

so now i am doing only 2 jobs... the teaching at tuffahah.. i have a new student now, nazihah, from madrasah alsagoff alarabiah..

and the job at the dental clinic.. 2 amanahs.. you know i learnt amanah is a very, very heavy thing. *whistles*.

k actually i am someone who cant whistle. x)
alrite, ila huna. khalek fakirni! ;)

posted by Ruqa @ 11:20 AM