r.u.q.a.y.y.a.h.

been a long time since i wrote in here. if my entry starts with that line, there'll always be around 60% chance that im going to write something long. hehe.
i dont know laa perhaps finally im growing out of this blogging thing. no kidding, been doing it since i was 14.. so yeah... maybe it's time to stop and keep a diary instead. i used to have a diary... that was when i was in my growing teenage years.. 3 yr diary.. i wrote in it when i was 13 and stopped at 15... why did i stop? i can't remember why... but everytime i read the entries back... it was so... nice.. to know what you've been doing and thinking in the past... and unlike a blog where once u press 'delete this blog' everythings gone... a diary is something u won't likely to throw it away. it's either under your bed, in your bookshelf or shoved underneath your clothes. x) yes, once, i found my diary underneath my err.. undergarments. i immediately snatched it and yelled 'what are you doing here?!' and read it all over again. and all plans of cleaning undergarments drawers were delayed...
so... yeah.. maybe will start buying a nice, new book and write the old fashion way... and maybe one day after i die... people will read it... and say.. "ohh... so this was how her life was... may Allah bless her in the other life..." ameen... hehe.. ni kire hint jgk tau utk sape2 yg bace blog ni... :p klw aku dah mati tu... doa-doakan la ya....
yesterday me and sarah went to ishlaa's house for a kenduri because hes going away to al-azhar.. when i was little i had a bit of ambitions of going there.. but it wasnt a firing kind of ambition.. it was just an amber going to die kind of ambition. haha... because i guess i didnt want to be an ustazah... i wanted to be a doctor. i wanted to heal and help people. i wanted to wear a white lab coat. but then again.... looking at things now... im getting lazier... haha.... the thing i know now is i want to finish poly.. and rest after this. that's my goal now... not very farthinking isnt it.. ah well.. insyaAllah oh Allah help me please chart my directions... ameen...

now that we found each other...
... we must always care and treasure...
because not only we are together..
i want this to be forever...

too.

posted by Ruqa @ 12:02 PM