r.u.q.a.y.y.a.h.

cousin power. back: my sis from left (majidah & fadhilah). front from left: my cousin nur, me and iqah aka my tutee (however u spell it..)

had iftar with them & family & our grandma last week @ this place at Bugis. it had been really nice... it seems like only yesterday we were little kids playing together at nenek's house...

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today i spent half of my day at ndc... treated this 13 yr old girl. took an hour to finish everything then i rotted all the way 'till 1230. went home... found the house a mess. they had been rearranging furnitures and wiping and cleaning everything. i was too tired.. took a nap till 2. woke up... did my part in the family cleaning day.. cleaned my room... cleared my books and wardrobe. threw away my op.tech notes. i think i will do ok w/o them now. now it's all practical.. i dont think i will need to know the quantities of amalgam or dental cements and all those... insyaAllah everything's in my head.. the more important thing is to know how to handle these materials.. dental hygiene notes.. i threw most of them away too... i have the textbook afterall.. dental anatomy.. i will throw them away one day... it is so not relevant to know how the fissure of the molars go anymore.. the books i keep are my dental hygiene, oral pathology, pharmocology, psychology and biology. i keep these books mostly because of my interest in them... i feel that one day i will sure look at them again and read the knowledge in them.. oral pathology especially... dr ronnie thought us in such an interesting way back in yr 2.. then again dr ronnie has this charm where he doesn't really teach like what dr haema does as in explain one by one and makes us bored to sleep... he doesn't do that but he somehow always put in some curiosity and interest in us that we always never want to stop there and then or only for exams.. but want to learn more... well, that's what i feel.. i think he's an incredible teacher.. love him to bits... too bad he's gone to ngeeann poly to teach the new nursing students there now... lucky them.. they will love him too im sure..
i also found my 'lost' things in my closet... mostly my letters where i got from friends.. most were from my one and only penpal shirley vien in canada... coz we were penpals naturally we write letters... and i keep almost all of her letters... so.. yup.. found them all.. safely tucked in my used-to-be geography purple file... along with her letters i also found the other letters and cards.. from zahirah and juhairiah... when i was to leave madrasah to join poly.. from feihao.. my tutor from hwa chong jc (you are very smart, but you just need to have more confidence), from elaine my buddy when i was attached to her at hpb.. from yiling.. from weizhen.. from anuar my sort of first friend who's a boy huhu.. from my malaysian friend firdaus ariff.. i dont know what he's become now but im sure he's doing great with his studies.. such a smart boy. then i also found all my secondary school works... my islamic history notes esp... i spent so much time writing islamic history notes in that black notebook... i decided to keep it.. insyaAllah if i want to revise on the histoy of Islam in Spain ill just refer to that book.. found a bottle of newater which had not yet been opened.. but i threw it anyway... how long it had been there God knows.. found his handkerchief... the one he gave while i broke down crying beside him.. stupid really... anyway he won the tv host thing... i knew it all along that he will win.. he is such a natural.. saw him on tv... wearing too much lipgloss and this ridiculous tight, white shirt and too much foundation and contact lenses. i was grateful the contact lenses weren't coloured... maybe he will start appearing on the hari raya shows or something.. i'll never watch suria channel again... haha... anyway i threw away his handkerchief too...
my room had never been cleaner... i vacuumed and wiped the ceiling fan and the windows and everything... love my room loads... its so comfortable...
done everything... cooked rice... on the net.. and found a surprising invitation from an old friend. invited me to come to the house on the 12th of raya... dunno if i can make it.. i think i will have 1/2 day attachment.. but insyaAllah i will try.. i dont think i will have time to do a lot of jalan raya this year... with my attachment schedule and everything... saturdays too i have 1/2 day of attachement *sigh*. but those who want to come to my house i will welcome u all with open arms insyaAllah... and 8th of syawal's my birthday... usually those who come on this day insyaAllah will dapat rezki makan at my house... hehe. :)
this is long.. been so long since i wrote an entry like this.
school life... well... school life's okay... we will be getting our exam results this 25th of nov.. insyaAllah i will pass everything and proceed to yr3 sem2. so far my results up till yr2 sem 3 had been.. well just average i guess. the results from yr2 sem2 really bring down my overall gpa.. so not my gpa's only 2.933... low isnt it... it used to be 3.5something.. hopefully my results this year will be better.
i still don't know what im going to do after this. apply U or work.. work in this line or something else... i really do not know...
well this is it i guess... oh i also found this poem i wrote in a piece of paper and shoved it in my closet...
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apakah ertinya jika engkau menilai diriku yang zahir semata-mata?
tiada erti...
sungguh dari luaran engkau sudah tertipu...
adalah lebih baik jika engkau menyelami roh dan jiwaku...
ialah hakikat yang sebenar-benarnya...
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this was when i was sort of obsessed with definitions of hakikat... read quite a lot of books from alfadhil imam Jalaluddin Rumi... all his poems are so deep... i had some troubles trying to understand them but then the book claimed as well "murid-muridnya memahami apa yang disyairkan mengikut tafsiran masing-masing" as in own understanding la gitu... weather or not Rumi explained to his students i wasnt sure... but like his students i am fascinated with his words...
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"Syariat ibarat pelita, ia menerangi jalan tanpa pelita,
kalian tak dapat berjalan.
ketika sedang menapaki jalan,
kalian sedang menempuh Tariqat,
dan ketika telah sampai pada tujuan,
itulah Hakikat"

"Ilmu adalah cahaya yang dengannya Tuhan turun ke
dalam hati setiap hambaNya yang Dia kehendaki"

"Jika hakikat segala sesuatu telah tersingkap, maka Nabi yang diberkati ketajaman mata hati, yang disinari dan menyinari tidak akan pernah mengajukan permohonan ini 'Ya Tuhan tunjukkan padaku segala sesuatu sebagaimana hakikatnya yang tersembunyi"
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berikanku kebijaksanaan ya Allah agar dapat ku menilai akan kebenaran pada segala sesuatu... lebih-lebih lagi pada diri dan perasaanku...

posted by Ruqa @ 8:00 PM