r.u.q.a.y.y.a.h.

today i had a fun day out with my cousins. we went to marina square to play bowling, prayed at maulana, ate at mcds, walked around esplanade... Alhamdulillah it was great bonding.. im glad i went. its actually quite a tough decision as there was supossed to be fajar hidayah meeting also... but these are my cousins and our sort of first time going out together. yes, first time. we never really went out except that we meet and bond whenever there's kenduri or gathering. so yea, it was great. abg ajit was there... together with his future wife. :) we all got to get to know her a lil bit. nice person and very pretty... but quite shy :) opposite of abg ajit really. suaidah who just came back from cairo was also there.. Alhamdulillah finally got to see her. even hanafiah was there! hanafiah who we seldom see (except hari raya) came. so it was great :) we took lots of pictures, of course.. and laughed quite a lot.. haha... tired of laughing sey... but one thing was missing though... someone else should have been there... if it wasnt because of what circumstances he put me in i would have definitely asked him along.. but i will try to respect his decision and things go on as per normal. if only he could just hope... thats all i ask for. i hope his mosque work turn out well... at least hes got something to aim for. rather than me... fajar hidayah hah. i missed meetings twice already. insyaAllah next one i will go...
Allah help me.
dont make me lose the balance of fear, love & hope... for i believe in what i believe. and in Allah i put all trust and prayers. ameen.

posted by Ruqa @ 10:41 PM